Beltane and May's Super Full Moon

I wish I had more friends; more supplies, more something. I feel a little lonely and sometimes empty when performing my rituals. Beltane was spent at home with the children. I had planned for us to go outside, but it was unbearably hot and the children cranky. The heat made me feel ill and a headache all day. Saturday's super full moon was also a bust. The sky was thick with clouds and the air sticky and hot. It was suffocating just stepping outside. I was horribly bummed I didn't get to see the largest full moon of the year. Instead, I contemplated the goals I was going to set for this lunar cycle. I can't wait until things get back to normal. Everything is still a bit of a mess in my life and it's really fucking up my zen.

Children of the Goddess

Happy Holiday!  Today's Beltane! Luis Rivera had paint on his face, and most of us were running around and hugging people saying happy holiday. Well, I was saying happy birthday just for the heck of it so I could purposely fix it. I was in a good mood all day.

At lunch we made music and danced in honor of the Lord and Lady consummating their love. Flowers, ribbons and bright colors were all involved. I just wish we could have done more. Oh, the restrictions public schools have put it place. Not for lack of trying though.

Luis and I have tried to start a club similar to the Christian one here at school. The only thing we need is a sponsor. Unfortunately, the one Pagan teacher in this entire school is against it because she fears for her job. Technically, it's illegal to fire someone based on their religious background, but being in the bible-belt, I understand her fears.